Missing someone is not bed of roses. Months feel like years and years feel
like eternity. Everyday you think about them and dream about doing daily chores
with them. It just gets harder. But who would you blame? I would blame all
those chemicals and hormones in my body that released when I was with my
special someone. You make them feel like the most important person you ever met
because the voice in your head says, “That they are the one you always
wanted.” The depth of emotions you have for them will surprise you.But
now, when they are gone your system gets confused and shaken up.
You wish to be with them the entire time. It takes a great deal to control
and handle interpersonal relationship empathetically when people decide to
leave .
Distance and the feeling of missing had made me physically present and
mentally somewhere in the arms of my special one. I dreamt of a safe place. I
dreamt of a place where only love resides and a person who loves me
unconditionally. Ready to accompany through rough patches of life. Visioning
everything with them left me in pain when they were gone.
The painting speaks about bewilderness and a place in my thoughts that
actually doesn’t exist. It gives thought to illusion and a disconnection from
the present moment. Feeling of nor floating neither existing and just
breathing.
The figure in the painting looks at peace which is contradictory to the
emotion going through the work is because falling in love taught me a million
things. Little things and big things like unlabeling fake love, short love,
long relations, dating, serious relations, committed relationship, etc. I
learned to love love just the way it is. Being there and caring for them no
matter what, has given me a sense of strength, courage and a belief that love
will cure worries. Which reflects in the calm face and posture of the figure.
Despite, being in knowledge there is a desire to go from this state of
(non-existing place) nowhere to everywhere (a place where I feel wanted and
loved).
One For Every Thought 